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How do you build a new life without Meth?


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How do you go about finding and building a new life?
Penel0pe I do it one day at a time
I make plans and have no expectations about outcomes - only hopes.
When disaster strikes, I have no expectations about the outcome of THAT either - for example, Paul's boss hasn't paid him in 2 weeks - trust me, THAT hurts... I'm as broke as that tree in my yard... but we're taking THAT a day at a time too, and being grateful that things were taken care of (Utilities, rent, etc) by prior planning... so we just need a little gas, and a little food... OK a lot of food... but my friends and family wont let us starve.
This Hospital will probably close soon. I'll probably be unemployed sometime in the near or not so near future ... not sure yet - so I have my feelers out. I will get unemployment, I will start saving money now, and not go into panic mode. Panicking will NOT change the outcome - the hospital will or will not close regardless of my reaction to what we hear may happen today, so I will PLAN for that as a possibility, and hope for the best... and EXPECT nothing.
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I have a lot of nervous energy now that I don't extinguish it in alcohol or catch up to it with speed.

The biggest thing I've had to do is figure out who I am. It's mean dispelling some myths about who I am not.

I am not a robot without feelings, nor will I ever "achieve" that status.
I am not a person who is in touch with her feelings yet.
I am not too cool for school.
I am not subject to higher expectations to anyone else.
I am not perfect.
I am not hopeless.

My life is just beginning.

I doodle a lot at work. I am really becoming more and more interested in art and surrounding myself in things that "just look nice". I love looking at art magazines and just enjoying the ways that other people's creations soothe my eyes and tickle my mind.

Art is one of the few things I don't feel competetive about. My life has been nothing but a competition. I had to be the smartest, the bestest, the prettiest, the inpenetrable woman of steel who only lets in who she wants.

Total control.

With art I feel different. I love seeing other artists completely blow my mind. I am happy with the things that come out of me, they take me by surprise, they intruige me. There is no competition, because I thoroughly enjoy what I do. I think I am gonig to pursue more art, there is a cartooning class I might take.

I found something I like.

I'll get my life back when I can learn to like people. I like people, but I am so uncomfortable around them because I have to be perfect. Except I don't have to be perfect.

I always want the unattainable. I have invented these "requirements" for how my life should look, that have been there since I was little. I can't meet the requirements. So I am learning to re-invent how my life "should be", and I am doing it by measuring it more to how my life "actually is".

I am not a rock star.
I cannot stay up all day and night and party all night and work all day.
I know people who can do that, and they are living a life of insantiy like I used to.

I AM NOT WEAK because I sleep at night.

I am NOT A LOSER because I "can't hang" anymore.

I have interests, and things I want to do with my life. I can't be a prisoner of "ideals".

I am just as much affected by the fantasy land as anyone else.

My problem is I daydream too hard.

I take my life back by living in the moment and finding the things to latch onto that I love.


At school, they call me the doodler. They always ask me to draw stuff for group projects.

That's a start. That's me.
forget suzette

well, here's something....

What Is Your Purpose?

My function in life was to render clear what was already blindingly conspicuous.
QUENTIN CRISP

Before taking successful action, you must first know what you want. (If you don't know what you want, how will you know when you've gotten it?) Before knowing what you want, it's good to know why you want it. A good way of knowing why you want it is knowing your purpose in life.
What is your purpose?

A purpose is something you discover. It's already there. It's always been there. You've lived your life by it--perhaps without fully realizing it. (Although when you do realize it, you'll know you've known it all along.)

It's your bellwether, your personal inner divining rod. It tells you, in any given moment, whether you're living your life "on purpose" or not.

A purpose is a simple, positive statement of why you are here. It usually begins, "I am " and is only a few words long.

It is not a goal. A goal is something that can be reached. A purpose is a direction, like east. No matter how far east you travel, there's still lots more east to go. Purposes can be used for selecting goals, just as someone traveling east can select certain cities as guideposts along the eastward journey.

A purpose is never achieved; it is fulfilled in each moment you are "on purpose." You use your purpose to set your course in life. It's your inner compass. When you are "on course," you are "on purpose."


The purpose of life is a life of purpose.
ROBERT BYRNE

A purpose is not an affirmation. Affirmations are created and used to make that creation real. A purpose is not created--it is discovered . You already have a purpose. You have always had a purpose. It has always been the same purpose. Your purpose will--for the remainder of this lifetime--remain the same.
A purpose is like a heart. You don't create a heart, but, like the Tin Man in The Wizard of Oz, you can discover the one you've always had.

Purposes sound something like this (Don't use this list to select a purpose for yourself. Give yourself the time and the freedom to discover your own. These are just to give you an idea of what purposes sound like.): "I am a cheerful giver," "I am a happy student," "I am a devoted friend," "I serve the planet," "I am a joyful explorer," "I am a lover of life," "I want a hamburger" (all right--the last one was my personal goal for the moment).

There are many ways to discover your purpose. Here are a few. If one doesn't work, try another. Patience, seeker, patience! The discovery of a purpose can take a while. When you know yours, you'll know it was worth the wait.

Make a list of all your positive qualities. This is no time for modesty. (False humility, by the way, is just a form of egoism.) Narrow each of your good qualities to one or two words. "Loving, giving, joyful, playful, caring, effective, etc." If your list is short, ask friends for suggestions. Using these words as a starting point, find the two or three that suit you best. Arrange them in sentences starting with "I " or "I am " When you discover your purpose, it will "click."

Before going to sleep, give yourself the instruction: "When I wake up, I will know my purpose." Have pen and paper by your bed and, first thing when you wake up, write whatever words are there. It may be your purpose.

Once you discover your purpose, I suggest that you not tell anyone. This keeps it powerful. It also keeps others from saying, "So you're a joyful giver, huh? Okay, I'll take five dollars," or "Happy helper? You don't seem very happy to me." Life's hard enough without having our purpose on display for the potshots of the world.

It is better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you are not.
ANDRE GIDE

When you know your purpose, it's easier to set and achieve goals. The litmus test of any action is simply, "Does this fulfill my purpose?" If yes, you can choose whether you want to do it or not. There is--as you may already know--a certain value to being "on purpose."

In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different.
COCO CHANEL
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Intention and Desire or Method and Behavior?

Often people attempt to live their lives backwards; they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want, so they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you need to do, in order to have what you want.
MARGARET YOUNG

There are some things we want because we really want them. There are other things we want because we think they will give us what we really want. The first category I call intentions or desires . The second category I call methods or behaviors .
For example, you may say, "I want a red sports car." I may say, "Fine, and what do you want from the red sports car?" "I want adventure." The true desire or intention is, in fact, adventure. The red sports car was the method or behavior to get adventure.

Another example: If you say, "I want more fun," I might ask, "What can you do to have more fun?" You could then give a long list of the things you find fun to do. In this case, fun is the intention or desire; the enjoyable activities you've listed are your methods or behaviors for achieving fun.

A person's intentions or desires are experiences. They are described by words such as freedom, security, power, happiness, self-worth, success, satisfaction, respect, peace of mind, adventure, love.

The methods or behaviors people use to have these experiences are symbols for "the real thing." They include money, job or career, clothes, cars, house, marriage, family, sex, lovers, sex, physical appearance, sex, educational degrees, sex, and travel. (And food.)

One must not lose desires. They are mighty stimulants to creativeness, to love, and to long life.
ALEXANDER BOGOMOLETZ

When people want a physical thing--and, yes, a husband, wife, child, or lover is a physical thing--they are usually talking about methods or behaviors. When they discuss inner experiences, they are generally referring to intentions or desires.
There is nothing wrong with wanting the symbols. This section, in fact, will suggest many techniques (methods? behaviors?) for getting your fair share of symbols.

It helps, however, to know that the house, car, better body, career, or money you want--yes, even a romantic relationship, religion, or spiritual path--is simply a method or behavior to get something else: something inner, something experiential (security, fun, energy, satisfaction, love, knowledge of God, inner peace).

Why does it help to know this? First, if you know the experience you're looking for, you can make whole lists of methods and behaviors that might fulfill it. Love can be found in more places than romantic relationships. Fun can be found without having a million dollars.

You can make a list and "scientifically" investigate it to see if a certain method or behavior fulfills a given desire or intention. If yes, fine. If no, you've still got a long list to explore.

Second, knowing the experiences you seek helps you avoid fear and disappointment. Say you know you want adventure and think a red sports car is the way to get it. If the car does it, fine; add "red sports car" to the list of things that (for now) work. If the car doesn't do it, that doesn't mean adventure is out of your reach. Next method or behavior, please.

Third, and perhaps most important, you learn that you can fulfill your own desires and intentions without too much outside help. You can fulfill your own desires or intentions right now . Want love? Love yourself. Want joy? Be joyful. Want adventure? The last frontier is the interior.

As you can imagine, if you provide yourself with the experiences you seek, this decreases the frantic quality of pursuing the symbols of life. "I can't be happy until I get " "I won't rest until " "My life isn't complete until I ." There's not a desire or intention we can't fulfill for ourselves, right now.

Ironically, once we give fully to ourselves, those symbols just seem to cascade in. Relationships, for example. Whom would you rather be around--a joyful, loving, happy person, or a miserable, needy, unhappy person? Well, so would everyone else. (People know this, which is why they pretend to be loving, happy, and joyful, in order to "catch" someone.)

When you are genuinely "up" because you are the source of your own "upness," people either do or do not relate to you--and whether they do or not is fine. As Frank Sinatra explains, "I bring my own crank."

The last time I saw him he was walking down Lover's Lane holding his own hand.
FRED ALLEN

You can use your behaviors and methods to discover your intentions and desires. Of each external "thing" you want, ask yourself, "What experience am I looking for?"
Experiences can be layers of an onion. Pleasure may be on the surface, but that's really a symbol for contentment, which is a symbol for peace of mind. Keep asking. Eventually you'll find experiences that are complete in and of themselves--experiences you're not using to achieve other experiences.

When you discover your fundamental desires and intentions, you'll know what you really want. Then, finding methods and behaviors to create the experiences is not only easier; it's more fun.
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You Can Have
Anything You Want,
but You Can't Have
Everything You Want
When I ask people that simple yet profound question, "What do you want?" they sometimes answer, "I want it all!" I often wonder, "If they had it all, where would they put it?"

I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go to the mountain. And I've looked over, and I've seen the promised land. So I'm happy tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man.
MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.
THE NIGHT BEFORE HIS DEATH

There's an awful lot of "all" out there. And there's a lot more "all" to be experienced inside. The people who say they want "it all" either have not taken the time to explore what they really want, or don't realize one simple fact of life: "You can have any thing you want, but you can't have every thing you want."
Living on this planet has some down-to-earth limitations. First, we can put our body in only one place at a time. Second, there are only 24 hours a day, 365 (or 366) days per year. Third, the human lifetime is only so long (150 years seems to be tops).

The limitations become even more severe when we consider the time we spend on maintenance: sleeping, washing, eating--and some of us even have to make money to pay for all that.

We can't have "it all" because "all" is more than our "container" of time and space will hold.

Before you cry, "Foul!" consider: You can have anything you want. Pick what you want most and--if it's available, if it doesn't already belong to someone else (who wants to keep it)--you can have it.

The history books are full of people who said, "I don't care if everybody thinks it's impossible, I think it's possible, I want it, and I'm going to get it (or do it)." And they did. You can, too.

The catch? The more unobtainable the "want" you want, the more you must sacrifice to get it. It's not that you can't have it, it's that you'll have to give up many--and maybe all--other things.

I was once on a talk show and a woman called in. She said she wanted to be an actress more than anything else. She was quite upset that she hadn't succeeded yet. Our conversation went something like this:

The Wright brothers flew right through the smoke screen of impossibility.
CHARLES F. KETTERING

"How much time do you spend on your career?"
"I spend all my time."
"You don't sleep?"
"Of course I sleep."
"Are you in a relationship?"
"Yes, but I only see him four or five nights a week."
"Do you have a job?"
"Of course--I have to work to support my two daughters."
"How old are your daughters?"
"Four and eight."
As you can guess, this woman spent about an hour a week on her "career." What she meant to say was that she spent all of her free time pursuing acting. Unfortunately, it's not likely that an hour a week will give her the success she craves.

My advice to her? After establishing that she loved her daughters and loved her boyfriend and considered them more important than show biz, I suggested she be grateful for the choices she had already made and her successful implementation of them. I told her there were any number of successful actresses who wish they had two healthy children and a loving, romantic relationship. The acting? Make it a hobby.

The phrase "spending time" is a precise and accurate one. We all have only so much time this time around. Spend it well.

Who begins too much accomplishes little.
GERMAN PROVERB

It's as though you were in a large store (Earth). You are given enough money (time) to buy anything in the store, but not everything in the store. You can fit a lot of things in your cart (projects you start). When it comes time to pay, however, if your money runs out, that's it. And this store does not give refunds. At best, the store may reluctantly buy something back as used merchandise--at a fraction of what you paid for it.
Some people put a "want" in their cart--a new career, a relationship, a car, a house, a project--and fail to consider its cost: the time it will take to obtain and maintain the want.

They like to quote Edna St. Vincent Millay:

My candle burns at both ends;
It will not last the night;
But, ah, my foes, and, oh, my friends--
It gives a lovely light.

While reciting it, however, they are secretly worried about the wax dripping on the new rug--which hasn't yet been paid for. At some point, they find themselves "out of time," quoting Samuel Hoffenstein: "I burned my candle at both ends, and now have neither foes nor friends."

Some protest: "Time is money, and with money you can buy time." Up to a limit, that's true. But you can't hire someone to do all the things you want to do yourself (flying a plane, ballet, race car driving, reading, watching videos). And do you plan to hire people to spend time with your friends, eat your pizzas, or to entertain your lover(s)?

At a certain point in most everyone's life--rich, poor, organized, or scattered--the wants outnumber the available hours in the day. At that point, a want must go a-wanting.

The solution is preventative: choose carefully at the outset. Be grateful that, although you can't have everything, some very nice anythings await your selection.
--- Life 101

XOutlaw
Woman
Going back to work full time.
Moving to a new city.
Making new clean friends.
Leaving behind users, and using people, in the dope world.
Going to church.
Re-discovering forgotten hobbies and pleasures.
Communing with nature.
Reconnecting with family.
Getting to know old friends again that were pushed aside for dope.
Discovering what made you use dope in the first place and learning from your mistakes.
Forgiveness.
Tamtom my name is tom, and here is what i did. first i became a hermit for a few weeks, then went into a rehab, but they was not prepared for someone in that condition, seems i could not play well with others, didn't like little punk games,so i was asked to leave and refered to the county mental health,after a few days i figured they was right cause i knew something was wrong. after talking to a whole crew of nutt drs. they wanted to test me,shocked that i was clean like i told them,i told this is me after i quit.well after 16months of classes 4hrs a day these folks taught me how to be soicial with folks,heck i had to relearn my whole life. after this time i started thinking half way right and went back to work like nothing happened, God sobered me up if was up to me to get fixed.
pisces i had to take teeny, tiny little steps in order to build..

....i had to find what kind of foundation i needed
......and i had to creat that, for me it was my creativity

....i had to figure out what my walls were going to be made of
......i made them out of the love everyone has for me,
these are sturdy walls

then i had to figure out what i was going to make my roof out of
.....i picked my writing.... that's my roof, it's over my head at night..
....now, i am filling my rooms up

one has my family and friends
....one is filled with promises of my future
one has all of my memories,
....one has all the new thoughts i have

.......and there is one more, it used to house my drug addiction

....i am thinking that i can use that room for better

...it can be my serenity room

does that help any T?

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