| imlostinky |
Where you violent on meth?
For me, I always had anger problem.
Horrible temper.
I can't say meth made me that way- I was a redneck whup
your butt ask questions later personality.
The only time I was ever a danger was when I had company
over and they kept arguing with me over my cousin.
At that time, if I had a gun, I would have shot them-
but I can't say that is a meth thing. At the time, I
would have shot them straight- they pissed me off.
That's why I don't do guns and why I have learned to
control my anger.
My husband was never violent on meth- alcohol, yes- meth
no.
So? how about you?
Did people need to keep you talking so you wouldn't get
lost in your own little world and become violent?
For me, I would have been more angry for being
interrupted from my tweaking than you not talking to me. |
| Replies... |
| Lisa |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Hi T! *smooch*
I didn't get violent when I was high - I was pretty
even-tempered and calm, surprisingly. I got violent when
I WASN'T high.
Trying to get clean was a nightmare of rage for me (as
you know). I don't have any doors in my house that
aren't severely damaged, I don't have any knicknacks
anymore at all (all smashed to smithereens), and the
walls are all pocked from where I threw everything from
vases to small appliances! LOL
However, a certain somebody who inherently had a rage
problem BEFORE meth, went absolutely bonkers when he was
high.
I think it has something to do with your basic
personality...the way you were before drugs ever came
into the picture.
I never had a bad temper until I started cleaning up
from meth.
He had a history of a bad temper his whole life.
*sigh*
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| vctry7 |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I'm not a violent person. I hate
confrentations (don't think that's spelled right). BUT,
I did get violent on meth. The longer I was up, the
worse it got. I plotted murders in my mind. I even drove
around with a gun looking for someone more than once.
My husband - he was violent before meth, but meth made
him 1000 times worse. He was a literal danger to
society. Now, he's much better. |
| BrokenN2 |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I agree with Lisa.....finally...hahahaha
I had some rage issues while coming off of meth...and
when drinking. Drinking has always made me violent for
some reason or another.
I did skitz-out on meth and even thought that Rolling
Stone, People, and Star magazine had hiden messages in
them and that deeeee was trying to have me
killed....wtf...I even thought many of you peeps were
someone else...hahahaha...where is the enjoyment??
I dunno one day I just began skitzn on meth and from
that point on its only gotten worse with each time I
used...even after abstaining for 250 days...the last
time I used I noticed that I didnt even get high....I
went straight to skitzn as bad or worse than before.
thinking people were hacking into my phone and
crap....weird and sick @#%$....scared me str8. |
| vctry7 |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I wanted to clarify something. I was not violent when
I first started using meth. In fact, I felt really good
and everything was right with the world.
It was over time and as my use increased from staying up
just one or two days to staying up for over a week. I
was always violent and suicidal everytime I came down
from the very beginning. |
| Imgetinrite |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I was very violent. I used to cary guns
with me everywhere I went.
I had a SKS and a .380 Pistol.
One of the things I did when I was at the peak of my
addiction was trade dope for cars.... I had a bunch of
them... I would part them out or fix them and sell them.
I had this little red ford escort and I was trying to
change the oil. The drain plug was strippen out and I
hurt my hand trying to get it out. I got so mad... I got
up from under the car... pulled my gun, and emptyed the
clip into the car.
The reason I bought the Sks ( assault rifle ) was this
punk I knew came to my garage one night with his friends
and shot at my garage with a little 22 cal pistol.
I bought the rifle.... so the next night.. him and his
friends came by.... and when they pulled in the
driveway, I popped about 10 rounds off at his mini
van... not trying to hit it, but to scare them... It
worked..... They ran like chickens with their head cut
off... and left the van in my driveway.
Everyone knew that I carried guns, and would use
them.... even the police.
Every time they would come to arrest me, they would come
with at least 10 of them... with guns drawn.
Funny thing is.. I was never a violent person before
meth.. and Im not violent now.
Just when I was high |
| Tamtom |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
yes, ive have been violent while on dope as
well as not.everytime i believe i was prevoked. |
| scorpio |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
If you pissed me off then yes I could be
violent. Guess what,, EVERYTHING pissed me off. |
XOutlaw
Woman |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I was lovey dovey when I was on meth. I
could be pretty pissy when I snorted that last line out
of my bag, or when I was trying to sleep it off for a
day or two. As soon as I had a new bag, and a couple of
days rest and food, I was all lovey dovey again. |
BentBut
Not
Broken1 |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I admit I do have a temper. Mostly, it lays
dormant and silent thankfully, but when the steam builds
up, there are only 3 choices: implode, explode, or
stiffle. I'm learning to enjoy the punching bag instead
of stiffle, implode, or explode. I am searching for new
and positive outlets for temper instead of stiffle,
implode, or explode. I'm almost always a wuss when it
comes to violence.
Pot or any medically prescribed drug that reacts
adversely or negatively with me will send me into a
hot-headed, combustable, person.
Coke, alcohol, meth......I'm mellow and happy and good
natured. That is/was a true blessing.
Verbally or physically or sexually abuse me or mine or
the defenseless, I will show NO pity whatsoever. I don't
have to tolerate such as that nor will I.
I also don't allow around me and mine anyone,
altered or sober, that even emits the subtle tones of
aggression and violence. Life is too short. |
sierra
Nights2 |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Good question Theresa. Oh and please
forgive me for being bad but uh, well you know.
I can't say for me cause well you know, I've never done
meth.
I can tell you about my son. I thought that when he was
high on meth, that that was when he was mean. I learned
from here that's not right.
When he was high, he was so nice and we would just have
the best conversations. When he was comin' down, OMG it
was horrible. He was so, so mean and extremely violent.
I was actually afraid of him.
I don't think that is just a meth thing. I've seen drunk
people be just as mean a he was. |
| pisces |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
i was violent my whole life...
starting in pre school...
.....i didn't want to have to share my space with
others...i didn't like anyone
i hated authority form the get go
and the violent bahavior continued on
and meth was the by product of my anger when i used it
i used a great deal of the time to
....perk up and be social and smile
but when i got clean and i was put on Lamictal for bi
polor, the anger sorta stopped with my mood swings....
??? |
Naiev
Newlywed
|
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Only when coming down. |
Tender
heartsKS
|
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I had a lot of rage in me before I ever
started using meth, but it never came out until I was
using and married to my then husband. The beatings got
so bad (he was twice as violent when he started doing
downers and whiskey with the meth) that I knew I was
going to get the crap beat out of me, but I wasn't going
down without fighting back
I had a guy come up after a meeting behind me and slap
me on the back hard like guys sometimes do and I had
whipped around and had my fist drawn. It was still an
automatic response for me. My heart was going 90 mph,
and I looked at him with a clenched jaw and told him if
he ever did that again, I'd deck his ass.
I still have a nightmare once in awhile about getting
the daylights beat out of me, and that's been over 20
years ago now. |
| Penel0pe |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Quote:
If you pissed me off then yes I could be
violent. Guess what,, EVERYTHING pissed me off.
And people wonder why we are so close... LOL ...
You're me, I'm you...
I was a violent, out of control beotch on meth.
I used to hurt people for fun, to collect money, to make
a point, because it seemed like the thing to do at the
time, because you pissed me off, because you gave me the
stink eye... it didn't take much.
So yes, I was extremely violent on meth - assaultive,
you might say. |
| Lisa |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Pen, what do you mean when you say you hurt
people for fun?
I know I didn't "know" you then, but that seems SO
incredibly different to how you come over.
It's hard to imagine you being a Mega-Mega-Beotch, and
IMPOSSIBLE to imagine you hurting people for fun.
Hurting physically or emotionally? |
| vctry7 |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Quote:
I knew I was going to get the crap beat out of
me, but I wasn't going down without fighting back
That was me. I knew what was going to come, so I didn't
wait anymore to get hit first. It didn't make me tough,
like I thought, it made me stupid. I never won one fight
-ever. I also started getting violent with other people.
I guess it wore off on me. |
| Flyf1sh3r |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I wasnt violent.
I didnt like to tweak around people, so I wasnt around
anyone long enough for them to get on my nerves.
I had the capacity to be violent at the end of my run.
My psychosis made me feel like my life was in danger. I
would have hurt someone to survive.
Its good not to live like that anymore. |
Penel0pe
|
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Quote:
Pen, what do you mean when you say you hurt
people for fun?
I used to like to fight - physical altercations. I used
to be a bully. I got in a lot of fights - at bars, I
maced someone in his own doorway once, I even got into a
brawl with two women at a laundromat once. I fought at
school. I fought anyone who I thought had it coming, or
anyone who threatened my friends, I would even go to
your house and knock on the door so I could fight you
for whatever reason there was that day.
I liked fighting. I fought a lot, with a lot of people,
male and female. |
| SOS1988 |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Addiction makes me an abusive, angry
person. I know if i continue like this i will be an
abuser |
mspickle42
|
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I wasn't before meth -- during meth -- or
coming down or off of meth. Just miserable. |
inkolb
|
Re: Where you violent on meth?
i was always a violent person but meth
brought it up a notch or two. my husband is a big, kind
gentleman, thank God. i used to spit in his face, punch
him, kick him, pinch him and burned him with a cig. he
would just restrain me. thank God that he didn't hit me.
he could have killed me with one swipe. one time i held
a blow dryer over the shower stall while he was taking a
shower, scared the @#%$ out of him. he should have
kicked my little ass but he never did. i am clean almost
4 years now and i am so sorry for my behavior. thank God
he stuck with me. love, angie |
| hdftboy |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Once.
I said things to the love of my life that I still regret
to this day.
It was the first time I realize my weekend fun was a
problem.
|
Macy
stiller01 |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
Trevor wasn't violent but he was the
biggest self riteous jerk I had ever met. He is usually
a smiling person. He was so bitter and angry it hurt to
watch.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr |
| Brn7more |
Re: Where you violent on meth?
I got beat by my ex-husband for 13 or so
years, it wasn't until I started using meth that I
started fighting back...and actually getting some good
licks in myself!!! |
