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Did you, as a meth addict, mean to take advantage of your family?
| JUSTCATS |
A Question for Meth Addicts
I am still trying to come
to terms, with my ex-fiancé / addicts meth addiction. I understand
the addiction, more since coming to this site, but I am
wondering about other things.
My question is this: When you were high or jonesin' really
badly, did you "knowingly" set out to "take advantage" of
someone close to you, to get money for more meth, or were you so
"messed up mentally," that you had no idea that you were about
to screw over a family member or spouse?
I know that you can only answer, as it related to you, but this
has been eating at me for awhile. I have been wondering, if my
ex-fiancé, Greg, "knowingly" tried to take advantage of me with,
lies to get more meth or if he was in a "mental fog", not
knowing what he was doing?
He described his mind, as being in a "mental fog" back then, and
I have heard someone else describe being on meth the same way-
exactly what is your thought process like, while using? I
thought it would make your mind race... I didn't think you would
be in a fog...
I am trying to understand what he did, and why he did it, so I
can let go of the anger and move on... |
| Replies... |
forget
suzette |
Re: A Question for Meth Addicts
it's a
caveman fight or flight primitive impulse...
.....me need meth
me + meth= NO PAIN
I gotta get it.
I gotta get it.
I gotta get it.
there's a way...
...............I'll pay them back later! |
| imlostinky |
Re: A Question for Meth Addicts
Quote:
I'll pay them back later!
Absolutely positively you betcha.
Except later never comes. |
nineyears
clean |
Re: A Question for Meth Addicts
Yep.
Exactly what Suz said.
There is nothing more important than knowing where your next
line, hit, whatever, is. Nothing at that moment in time.
Later, you'll pay the money back, or you'll make it right
somehow, because you really need this and you're not a bad
person, just really desperate for more dope.
You justify everything that feeds your addiction, even though
you know in your heart of hearts that what you are doing is
wrong, wrong, wrong.
You need the dope; you do what you gotta do to get it. And all
the while you are telling yourself that you will deal with the
messes you made in order to get it, after you get it.
Get it? |
| Penel0pe |
Re: A Question for Meth Addicts
It's all
about the dope. It's not about anything more than getting
another bag, come hell or high water.
I wish more people would put as much effort into their recovery
as they put into getting another bag.... |
forget
suzette |
Re: A Question for Meth Addicts
ANYTHING.
.....we could have had whatever we wanted.
we wanted meth.
if we'd only put all that effort into ANYTHING else with as much
passion..
....we could have had something worth all that bullshit. |
| Kellhappy |
Re: A Question for Meth Addicts
yup, i
agree with the others...i used to start getting nervous and
upset when my bag was getting low, and tried to get more before
running out. nothing was more important than getting more dope.
sometimes i felt badly about what i did, but it didn't really
matter once i got more drugs. in my experience, there isn't much
of what people consider your conscience involved. meth leads to
sick, sick behavior. even if i knew i was doing something
terrible, it didn't matter. it's horrifying to look back on
sometimes. on the other hand, it is good to know i don't have to
go back to that ever again. |
| JUSTCATS |
Re: A Question for Meth Addicts
Thanks for
all of your replies. I guess, in the back of my mind, I knew
that meth was the most important thing for him at that time.
It's too bad that he didn't have that much determination, to get
clean. |
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