Why did you quit meth?

I've read the stories, but I don't recall seeing many of you telling exactly why you quit? What was the final straw for you to make you want to change?

I quit because I didn't want to die.

I quit because I couldn't look at myself in the mirror anymore. I had become someone that I didn't like or even recognize.

I wanted to live!!

My answer to this question is in my post, "What I've learned in 60 Days.." Someone asked me this same question, so my reply is there. But I will copy it here, too.

What motivated me to quit?

The lonely, evil face in the mirror.

The mommy inside me screaming, wailing, begging for the addict to let her be a mother to her kids again.

A small moment of semi-sanity where I realized that I had my suicide letters written and ready to put out to be found after I was gone.

The emotional, mental and spiritual pain that was so intense I could feel it all over my frail body.

My 4 yr old son's words that echoed in my head constantly:
"Mommy, do you still love me?" and, "Mommy, I just wanna hang out with you. Why can't I come in your room anymore?" and hearing him cry softly in his room at night because I wouldn't take a break from smokin dope and come out of my room long enough to just tuck him in and give him a kiss & hug.

My sanity cracking, falling in a million pieces onto my bedroom floor after yet another unsuccessful day at IOP (Intensive OutPatient therapy).

Those and so much more that I can't think of.

I quit to escape the slavery caused by meth addiction.

The insanity, depravity, and severe mental illness.

We meth addicts will stop when the pain of continued use exceeds the fear of withdrawal.

Drug abuse begins for one reason and continues for another, but then its too late. I used up fifteen years of life in five years of shooting crank.

When I was in rehab, the psychiatrist said that mental hospitals have more patients due to meth abuse than any other single cause.

I hated being in the control of a drug, all day, everyday, no matter where I was or what I did, I hadda have it with me.

How Meth Addicts Think and Feel

I quit to regain my self worth.

I quit becuase I wanted to make sure my daughter always had her mommy and that mommy always had her daughter. I read how so many peeps will give up their children for this drug I did not want to be one of them.

I quit for three reasons, in order of importance:

1. I couldn't afford to do it anymore, financially. I quit using the very day that I both ran out and had no means to get more without either robbing someone or prostituting myself for it.

2. I was in a deep psychosis that was terrorizing me to the point of either suicide or homocide. I was also in horrific physical pain due to joint damage exhaserbated by my drug problem.

3. Somehow, I didn't want to die.

God tricked me.

I went to an NA meeting with my "him" at the time. He was court ordered...... I went high

I thought he had a problem cause he used needles and I only smoked.....(Ya I smoked about $150-$200 a day of meth)

I kept going to the meetings with him and within about a week the light came on, I realized my insaniety and the extent of my addiction.

I had all of those same things going on inside of me but thought I was too tough to ever admit it to anyone, the loneliness, fear of death, the yearning to be a real mom for my son.

Thank you for asking though....I never ever never want to forget where I came from!!!!!!!!!

I got sick and tired of being sick and tired (And broke, and depressed, and in trouble, and in fights with my husband, and of lying, and of the whole deal.)

I wanted to live, not barely survive. Drugs were killing me, they weren't fun anymore.

Choose freedom.