| inebad |
Meth user thinking of quitting
I have been a daily user for over 33 years.
I dont use needles I snort and eat it. I guess I am what
you call a functional user if there is such a thing. You
probably won"t believe me but I have kept my addiction
hid from my family and non using friends (which are
few). I have been married 32 years and have a grown
daughter. My wife and daughter do not know. I dont fit
the normal profile of a addict. I do not have sores and
I still have teeth. To top it off I am about 30 pounds
over weight. I probably would not consider quiting
except it is finally taking me down. It has been its own
hell all of these years keeping it hid and keeping
myself functioning. I know this is probably hard to
believe but it is the truth. I am not sure why I have
lasted this long or why I even care at this point. I
figure I dont have that many years left and I am not
sure I can put my wife and myself through the agony of
recovery. I am not sure it is even possible for me to
quit. I think cold turkey would kill me. I live in a
very rural area and there are not any support groups
close. I guess the whole purpose in writing this is to
show another side of this evil drug in hopes that it
might help someone else. I know my use has deprived
myself and family of many things and I truly regret
that. Some of us addicts do still care but I guess not
enough. I don"t know what I am asking just want to see
if anyone has a similar story. |
| Replies... |
debs
4321 |
Re: Meth user thinking of quitting
Hey Inebad,
We have had a conversation a time or two in chat. You
really need to think about yourself. You are ticking
away at your time line therefore your family is missing
out.
I do understand your situation.
I was a closet meth user for years. Although i smoked
it, I ran my own business for 5 years. And still do. I
was able to hide my addiction from everyone. At least I
thought so anyway. But my point is you need to try some
kind of recovery. If only a few meetings and then you
can see how it works. You may have to drive a little but
whats the difference. You also might be surprised if you
opened up to your family and explained your disease.
Love and truth is where you need to stand. Your family
will love you through this as long as you make an effort
to get yourself some help. I am sure of that. You could
be selling yourself short but not doing this. We will
love you here until you can love your self, Inebad.
Much love to "ALL" who suffer from the effects of
addiction, |
| akses |
Re: Meth user thinking of quitting
I kept my addiction hidden from family
members and friends the whole time as well. I guess this
is the reason why I kept going for so long because I
wasn't really hurting anyone but myself.
One day, I decided to come clean with my family and let
them know of my problem and that I wanted to get better.
I expected chaos when I came clean with them, but I
recieved the exact opposite. It turned out to be the
best decision I ever made.
They were very supportive. Getting clean was easier than
I had expected. I know that I would be still using to
this day if I had not asked for help.
It sounds like you really WANT TO and are READY TO quit.
Its up to you to take the next step. Reach out for help.
Admit to a loved one and clear your consciousness. |
inebad
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Re: Meth user thinking of quitting
I thank all of you for your input. I really
think I need at least 30 days in-house to get me started.
Does anyone have any places in the Midwest they would
recommend? |
| lynne |
Re: Meth user thinking of quitting
i think you should quit. you can't be that
old.
my ex is mid 50s. he's used for years too. i wish he
would quit. he probably thinks he can't either.
but imagine leaving this life and not having met that
great challenge of throwing off the addiction's yoke!
do something for yourself; if you want to quit do it!
it's like finally taking control and showing the
addiction who really is boss.
we all have challenges . my challenge was to get over my
addict ex. don't ever be defeated. life is about
fighting and winning, not giving in. |
