The Meth Diet
|The Meth Diet
This is an interview I
did for a UK magazine that came to KCI.org and asked speedfreaks to complete.
I'm writing a magazine report on meth
use for weight loss in the USA and I understand that people want
to remain anonymous so I thought this might be a good way to
research it. I have 12 questions and I'd be so grateful if you
could answer them for me. Kindest regards and thank you for your
1. What age did you first use? 17
2. Why did you think it would help you lose weight? I just did it because I was raised
in the 70's and drugs weren't known yet to be devastating, I had
a lot of gay friends, they told me I should try it. (1983)
I used on and off my whole life
I actually quit 6 years before my last relapse. I returned to
meth for weight and ADHD issues.
3. What was your weight before and after use? Timescale of that? I'll give you the easiest timescale I can, If you do speed and
you are smart you force food to not get malnutrition. I would
drink soup, sports shakes, yogurt, and take vitamins.
so...on a year relapse...lets use 2003 I started at 185lbs
in March, by
April - 165
May - 155
June - 145
July - 140
came home quit using I went from 140 to 170 in three
weeks...I kid you not.
...........the weight comes back fast.
4.How much did you use? Where did you get it from?
I started at a quarter gram.. I ate it in capsule first,
snorted it, smoked toward the end and then all three. my
tolerance rose to a gram a day in two months....then I lost
count..........I got it from the devil. heh! heh!
5. How did it make you feel?
at first very organized and happy,
creative, sexy, manic, empowered, invincible, unstoppable...it
has a false sense of well being. and I actually found I
have ADHD, so I would have PLANS when I got it...to
organize, clean or draw,
do art stuff....etc. then when you stay awake for one day
(24 hours), not as organized and creative, more
like re-arranging a table for 10 hours or some weird thing.
.....when you are awake 3 days....
you start hallucinating and getting auditory hallucinations.
whispers, glimpses of things, flashes of something....you get
really crazy, clinically psychotic...
I was pretty strong mentally but I knew people that already had
personality disorders...like paranoia or internal rage that
REALLY got weird...thinking people or things were after them,
believing the whispers were real, picking at their faces.
6. Did it affect your life?
It took away EVERYTHING I've ever
cared about and turned me into a different person, throwing my
own personal values aside,
like honestly, patience, time, being on time, feeling real love,
just love for meth was what I had..
7. Did you lose weight? Did you like the way you looked?
Yeah baby! I lost weight
alright.....and I thought I was dead sexy too. I was, and I am
still... but, I noticed my circulation going wrong. blood
pressure once was 175 over 95 so I got blood pressure pills and
use, I knew it was killing me but I loved it sooo much. I
loved being thin, and kept going. and then my hands
started looking old first, then, I noticed my skin hanging from
dehydration and rapid weight loss, I had dark circles under my
eyes, my skin looked bad. I went threw a lot of phases with side
effects and meth. first fever blisters, then my voice
would go away, hives, bruising easily, translucent, motor cortex
retardation, cutting my hair like Rod Stewarts every time,
(that's one way my friends knew it every time,... my hair!)
malnutrition, dehydration, dreams of paralysis I couldn't wake
up from ...freaky.
then the breaker box effect, like if you flipped one off and
back on...I'd mentally fall into a shutting down thing.
then click back on before I passed out...wide awake. I got
"spinning energy " what I called it anyway.....
If you look into a bright light then close your eyes you get an
impression of the light......burning sort of right? well spin
that, like spinning light.
then add being awake, and seeing it when I would stare at a
person or wall...
I could see thru it, at least it was clear, but this went on for
a month while I was recovering once. I looked older because of ,
dehydration, lack of sleep,
malnutrition. A great comparison, is people in Nazi
I could wear make up, but my body, mind and complexion were not
8.When did you realize it was a problem?
9. When did you decide you had to stop and how did you stop, if
I stopped several times, this last
time I lost everything,
I wished I was in a padded cell so I would not have to look for
anything else that day. I am ADHD and it multiplied. I couldn't
pay attention to my own thoughts, I couldn't find anything, I
lost credit cards, my phone book I had 20 years, my family
photos, and my parents baby pics.
.................how did I quit doing it?
I went insane and lost the ability to hold a job to buy more, or
a place to live and I was facing some horrible alternatives, but
the demon howled anyway.
I still went home instead of having sex with someone for
I just COULDN'T DO IT...It was all I had left to
sell..........but I defiantly lost everything else. then when I
came down I was so depressed, and felt like
dying, just numb, I can't live without it I thought, I wanted to
die using cause I couldn't live without it. I was thin...yes.
10. How is your weight now?
........ya mean my burdens? still
My weight *drum roll* is 169...ok 170! *smiles*
...........but 140 was skinny as a rail for my build.
I'd be happy at 155-160
11. Do you think young women do use crystal meth as a weight
12. What would your advice be to them?
as the weight goes down, so does
it made me greedy, and a liar...too things I'm really not at
heart. I can only say, you have to do meth to know how bad
it is, but by then it's too late. you wish you could cut that
part out of your brain, it's like it makes a part of your brain,
rotten. like a bad person lives in us all that forever, and it's
a demon trying to get out all the time. but we can't give in,
but we want to throw away reality and go there, but we can't
escape reality, that's insanity.
you will blow up like someone out an air hose up your buttwhen
|Re: The Meth Diet
Suz, I'm always
interested in trying to get insight into how/what meth addicts
think/feel so I can perhaps relate the input to my daughter. I
found your interview to be very interesting.
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